December 08, 2007

~ Randomly...

Write only when you have something to write. Ask a question. Or many. Or try to answer a question. Or many. And when you don't know the answer, write a story. Make sure it captures not just the imagination but the mind, the heart, the soul too.


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In this month's issue of First magazine, Will Smith, in his interview, remarked, "Human beings are creatures of hope. The only reason somebody gets out of bed is because they have hope - that there's something out there for them, which is also the reason people who are depressed stay in bed, because they feel there is no hope."

Waking up because there is hope, some kind of hope. I thought about the reason why I wake up each day nowadays. Actually, I wake up for breakfast. So, yes. I hope that there's some breakfast out there for me. But if there is, it's only cos my mum or I remembered to drop by the bakery the day before.


I really dislike it when my tummy acts up when I have irregular meals or am under stress (which doesn't happen often now ever since I took a career switch). So, I try to make sure I have 3 somewhat regular meal times. Breakfast is usually before 9.30am. Meaning, I wake up around 8.30am on normal days.

People who are depressed do not want to get out of bed because they feel there is no hope ahead in the day for them. I guess that's pretty true. When you are depressed, you don't really care what is ahead.


That said, on days that I decide to go a few levels up the depressed mode, I still get myself out of the bed. Not for hope or the seeking of hope. It's usually either for food (ditto) or if I really can't fall asleep anymore, I get up for the TV.

I'm a simple girl with very simple, down-to-earth hopes.


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I so need to study and learn something before my brain capsizes in this monotony. So, I picked up philosophy. Now, my brain swims around ontological arguments.


Very hazy. I'm hoping to reach the island of existentialism soon.


Meanwhile, if you believe in a perfect anything (like, a perfect marriage/life partner or God), I think you are really pretty fucked. And I think I'm an ex-rationalist coming to be an empiricist.


*slightly dazed*


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Compliance is the most convenient stone to corporate and workplace success. Formality is the boring scenery along the path.


I'd rather not succeed. But I'm quite skilled in giving people illusions or disillusions, depending on whose side I'm on.


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Eug: Who do you hang out with nowadays?
Me: You mean besides my mum?
Eug: Uhhuh.
Me: And my dad, my sisters and my two dogs? *pause* I hang out with my laptop. All my friends are in my computer. No lah, erm... Wendy, I guess.
Eug: Oh. Does Wendy have a boyfriend now?


*haha*


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To the girlfriends of my guy friends,


There is absolutely no need for your green horns to pop out. I prefer to date woman. If I were to date at all.


xxx


See! So much inspiration from one evening with royalty.


Next up, I would really like to get my Catcher In The Rye back. Another royalty - the royal PITA...

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:45